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  God, she is like a drug. I am so addicted to her. Every fucking moment of the day, I want her. “Do you want me inside you baby?” She nods so fast; she makes me dizzy. My eyes glance to the ice bucket and an idea pops into my mind. “Be still, okay.” She nods again, her eyes are wide. With a small block of ice, I tease her nipples. They peak and I flick my tongue over them. Her body bows again, pressing herself against me, and my eyes lock on hers. “I said stay still.” How I wish I had rope to have her bound. I grab another block of ice; this time I slide it down her stomach to her belly button. A whimper escapes her lips, but she doesn’t move. Good girl. Now I can reward you.

  I hover over her, my face inches from hers. My tongue licks the seam of her lips and she opens, granting me access. With one hand, I push my shorts down, enough to free my erection. With a firm grip I line up to her entrance, teasing her pussy with the tip, just enough to make her hips buck again. “Please, Lucien. Fuck me!” She cries out.

  “Your wish is my command, sweetness.” I plunge into her, bottoming out and her legs wrap around me. Her heels pushing against my ass. Our bodies tangle on the blanket, her arms holding onto my neck. You will ride me sweetheart. Before she has time to move, I circle my arm around her body, and lift her up. I sit back without breaking our connection.

  “Ride my cock, baby. You’re in control, but only for today.” I wink and she takes her cue. Her hips move back and forth, in a slow teasing motion. She takes control and her nails rake down my chest, digging in. A deep hiss escapes my lips when the bite of pain sends pleasure to my cock. Her head drops back as she rides me, bouncing on me. Like the good girl she is, taking everything I have for her. She grips my shoulders and I lean forward and suck on her nipples. My tongue flicks over them. “Lucien…” She moans and I look up. Fuck, she looks beautiful on my cock.

  “Yes, baby, take me. Take every inch of me in your tight little cunt. Look at me.” She obeys and I throb, the awareness that she is letting me in pains me. Our eyes are locked in a heated stare. “You’re perfect Cassie, so fucking perfect.” I need her. She needs to be mine. I want her bound to my bed while I fuck her. The image is too much and the heat travels down my spine. “Come for me, sweetness. My lumiére, give me your pleasure.” The obedience in her let’s go, and she splinters apart on top of me. My release shoots into her, coating her. Mine, all fucking mine.

  Chapter 10

  Lucien

  We spent the rest of the afternoon swimming, kissing, and talking. Cassandra was easy to be with, there wasn’t any awkward silences and I ached to taste her all the time. I can’t begin to explain the way I feel for her. There are so many reasons I shouldn’t be here, why she shouldn’t be here, but I can’t not have her. What worries me is her feelings, if they match mine, we’re in so much shit. So many things could tear us apart as soon as we step off this plane. My phone buzzes, it’s Jayce.

  * You need to tell her about Sasha. Things aren’t good with her *

  Shit. Why can’t my past stay there? Like I said so many factors. My gaze falls on Cassie, she’s asleep. The peacefulness in her features cracks through a part of me I buried. We’re about to land and all I want to do is tell the pilot to turn around and fly us back to Hawaii. I stare at the message and consider his words. This isn’t my problem anymore, but he’s in this predicament because of me. My stupidity from a long time ago has put my best friend in the middle of something that he didn’t deserve.

  * Too soon. Why? What’s happened? *

  Outside the clouds move below us, glimpses of flickering lights on the ground make my eyes hurt. It’s still dark, but the lights of the plane light up the sky. The same way Cassie lights my life. My heart. My soul. The dark fucking soul inside me. Fuck, I am in such deep shit right now. I need to let her go. I look back at her sweet innocent face and my heart tightens painfully in my chest. The thought of letting her go is killing me, but how can I even begin to bring her into my life. Jayce’s reply comes moments later, interrupting my thoughts.

  * Sasha and Claudia. Need I say more? *

  Fuck! I don’t reply. As we land with a small thud, I realize I need to wake Cassie, I will deal with Jayce in the morning. “Cassie, we’re here sweetness.” When she opens her eyes and glances at me with a sleepy stare, I just about wrap her in my arms. How can you want me, sweetness? I help her out of the seat, pulling her to me. My lips devour hers and our tongues dance in an erotic sensual movement.

  I lace my fingers through hers as we disembark the plane. Robert is already at the car waiting. Realization hits me suddenly. Does she want to go home with me? Do I take her to her place? Shit!

  “I can have the car take you home if you’re tired.” I glance at her, hoping she asks to come home with me, but she nods and agrees to go home. My heart plummets. I mean it hits the fucking floor and I don’t know how else to respond so I don’t. Without another word I open the door for her and watch her slip in. Once I shut the door softly, Robert’s gaze is on me. “Where are we going Sir?” I peer at him and shrug. He knows me well enough not to ask again.

  My phone buzzes again, “What, Jayce?”

  “Relax, I just wanted to see if you landed safely. You didn’t respond to my message.”

  “We just landed. I will call you when I am home.” I hang up before he can respond.

  I slide into the car next to Cassie, and my whole body relaxes and tenses. This is what she does to me. She doesn’t want to go home with me. Why should she? “You okay sweetness?” The need to touch her is unbearable. Instinctively I reach out and touch her thigh, it’s so warm and soft, just like the rest of her. As soon as the thought invades my mind, it flits to her warm, wet pussy and my cock twitches against my zipper. Just relax, she’s obviously nervous.

  “Yes, I am always groggy when I wake up.” She looks so sexy; I can see her eyes are heavy with sleep. She’s exhausted. The day on the beach, had tired her out.

  “You’re adorable when you’re tired.” I wish I could tire her out more often. If she let’s me.

  Robert slides into the driver’s seat and the words out of his mouth are like an answer to my prayers. “Mr. Verán, Summer Hills?” I glance at Cassie and she doesn’t object. Before she can, I nod.

  “Thank you, Robert.” My eyes meet his in the rear-view mirror. He did that on purpose. I realize that my emotions for Cassie are obvious to him, he’s known me for long enough to recognize how I feel about her. The only reason for that though is because I haven’t ever gone to such lengths for any girl.

  She must be tired; it takes a few moments to realize that we’re not going to her apartment. “Where are we going?” Her mocha eyes gaze straight into mine.

  “My place.” Panic rises in my chest, waiting for her to refuse to go back to mine. “Unless you’d rather go home? I don’t mind. Sorry Cassie, I thought—” Verán, you need to let her decide. I watch her reaction when she grasps my hand I visibly relax. My body was about to combust with stress that I had freaked her out.

  “Lucien it’s fine, I was just asking.” She gives me a small smile. “I didn’t realize you preferred me to come back.” How in the world did she expect me to even sleep alone after the light she’s brought into my life? Why does she look so sad? I am sure I would fuck this up.

  “Sweetness, don’t start that. I want you with me.” Once I pull her against me, I hold on, relishing the heat of her body. She molds to me, fits so perfectly in my arms and I fit so perfectly inside her.

  “I know. I’m sorry.” Her voice is soft; she’s worried about us again.

  “Don’t be, I will convince you I want you. In more ways than you imagine.” I wish I could calm her fears about this. It’s going to take time for her to trust me, but I will make sure she does.

  “Oh Mr. Verán, I am certain you will.” A naughty smile plays on her lips and my palm is twitching to spank her little ass.

  “Cassandra,” leaning towards her, my lips are at her ear, “that has just earned you a spanking.” I am pushing h
er a little, testing her. When she gasps, I realize I am safe. She’s not freaking out and asking Robert to stop the car or take her home. Yet. When we arrive at the house I am about ready to tie her up and pound into her so hard she’s breathless and screaming my name.

  “Thank you, Robert, I will take the suitcases. You can pick us up tomorrow around 10?” He nods.

  “Yes sir, have an excellent evening. Ms. Winters.” She smiles and then takes in her surroundings as Robert makes his way to the cottage in the back. Cassie seems surprised that he lives on the property.

  “He lives here?” I nod and guide her towards the door. Her constant amazement at me and things I do is all new to me. As I unlock the large entrance door, she steps inside and I take her coat. I hang it on the hook next to the door. Once I have locked up, I follow her into the living room.

  “Welcome to my home, Cassie.” She looks on in awe at my apartment. I don’t think it’s anything special, but I am sure if you’re not used to living in the mansions I had to grow up in, it must be pretty spectacular. The living room is my favorite. It’s open plan, with muted tones, grey, silver, black, and dark blue. Her soft touch lands on the sofa and then the mantle of the fireplace. I am tempted to give her a tour, but I should let her decide, she’s not mine yet. There’s one room in particular I want to show her.

  “Sweetness? Would you like a tour now? Or in the morning?” She meets my gaze with a tired smile and I realize that she needs some rest.

  “Tomorrow? I am exhausted.” Her gaze flits to me, I nod and take her upstairs. Tonight she will sleep next to me, again.

  “Well, if you’re happy with sleeping next to me, I will show you to the bedroom.” She smiles. I am so nervous about what she wants. Never in my life have I been unsure around a woman. This is definitely a first for me, confidence is something I don’t lack. With her, I can’t find it in me. She’s got me under her spell.

  “Yes, Lucien. Who is the one doubting now?” She asks. Her sassy mouth throws back the words I used on her. Cheeky girl. She needs a spanking so badly. Her ass will be pink with my hand print, soon. I can’t stop the illicit thoughts running through my mind.

  Another first is bringing a girl into my bedroom. This was my space. I wasn’t used to sharing it with someone. She’s really getting under my skin, and there’s not a damn thing I can do about it. All I want to do is make her smile. I show her the bedroom and escort her to the en-suite bathroom. “Here’s a toothbrush.” As I hand it to her, I recognize her expression. Distrust. With my reputation, I guess I don’t blame her.

  “You keep toothbrushes on hand in case you bring anyone home?” Pain tugs at my heart that she has such a negative impression of me. I haven’t given her a reason to wonder, but I suppose she doesn’t know me. That’s something I need to work on.

  “No, I travel for work, Cassandra.” My voice comes out clipped and harsher than I intend. I can’t do this. She doesn’t trust me. This is not going to work, at all. I can’t be with someone who doesn’t trust me, especially with my lifestyle. She can tell I am angry, my body aching to take her into the room down the hall. Bend her over and punish her for ever doubting me. Even though I enjoy things that aren’t exactly vanilla, I do not cheat. I hate people who do.

  “Sorry.” Her gaze drops in such a submissive way, and I am overcome with lust. She opens the toothbrush and clutches the tube of toothpaste. Her voice is low and I can tell she regrets her words. Yes, you fucking upset me, but not in the way you think darling. You’ve just got my dark soul wanting to play with you in ways you could never fucking imagine. The things I want to do to you, with you.

  “Cassie, I am not the playboy everyone assumes I am. I may not do things by the book, but I would never cheat on you. Ever.”

  While I watch her rinse her mouth, meeting her gaze in the mirror, my eyes plead with her. “I didn’t say or think that you were. I didn’t even know who you were until you introduced yourself the first day I started work.” Surely she knew the company she was going to work for? Her gaze softens and I see that she’s telling the truth. Holy Shit! She didn’t know me. Well, now she will know the real Lucien Verán, not the one that everyone sees or thinks they know. The rich little playboy. Or the… NO!

  “You didn’t?”

  “No Lucien. I told you. I mean when I first saw you at the coffee shop, I had no idea who you were.” The tension evaporates from my shoulders and I feel like a weight has lifted off my shoulders.

  “I want you to see, I am not a playboy. It’s not in my nature. You’re tired, come, I will get you a T-shirt to sleep in.” I shake my head of the thoughts that pull me into my dark abyss. Pulling her into the bedroom, I grab a T-shirt and hand it to her.

  “Can’t I sleep in my underwear?” Her request to sleep in her underwear is a no-go.

  “No,” my voice final.

  “Why?” She pouts, but there is no way in hell she will be sleeping if she’s in her fucking underwear.

  “It’s very distracting and we will get no sleep.” Just the thought of it has my cock raging. I walk into the bathroom and close the door, I can’t stay up late tonight and she’s way too fucking tempting. When I meet my reflection. I notice a difference, even though my eyes still have that dark flickering inside them. That will never change. Ever. I pull my phone out of my pocket, there’s a message from Jayce.

  * Dude, seriously? You get some pussy and now you’re ignoring me *

  He can be such a dick sometimes. He’s lucky that I love him like brother or I could easily punch him. Although, Jayce could have probably killed me many times. I hit reply.

  * What the fuck do you want? I just got home. We can talk tomorrow *

  Once I am done in the bathroom, I pray that Cassie is under the covers, if not we will both not get any sleep tonight. Jayce hasn’t replied and I don’t think he will. With one last glance in the mirror, I open the bathroom door and find my sweetness in bed. She looks adorable in my too big tee, under the plush white comforter. She watches me intently, hungrily. “Do you like staring at me, Ms. Winters?”

  “Always, Mr.—” Her eyes rake over me and I realize I am tempting her as much as she does me. She looks like a starving little tigress and all I want is to make her purr.

  “Cassie, please?” Fuck the big meeting I have tomorrow or I would have called in sick, for both of us. “I need to relish you for tonight. Tomorrow morning…” I kissed her forehead. “That’s another story.”

  I reach over and turn off the light. My arm bands around her waist, and I tug her into me, inhaling her sweet scent.

  “Goodnight Lucien.” The way she says goodnight to me is perfect. It’s a soft sweet sound and I want to hear it forever. Forever? What the fuck is wrong with me? That’s not in my future.

  “Goodnight sweetness.”

  With my arm wrapped around her, I glance outside, taking in the view from the bedroom patio doors. The city of LA below us and I wonder how many people are with the right person. My head is so fucked up. You’re such a pussy, scared a girl will leave you? She’s not just any girl! My inner demons are wide-awake tonight. I knew they would be, as soon as I am back here, I feel them. There is so much in this town that can pull my life apart. Pull Cassie apart.

  We lay in the dark, Cassie’s breathing evens and I know she’s fast asleep. I shift a little and when she doesn’t stir, I get up and walk down the hall. When I reach the door to the room that holds my darkest desires, the dirty pleasures I ache to show Cassie, I step inside. You wouldn’t know it if you looked around. There is no sign of what goes on inside. I keep it tidy, everything in it’s place. Every drawer and cupboard closed and locked. The king size four-poster bed is perfectly made. The bedding a deep purple, with black cushions. The ambience of the room reveals the calm, but also the darkness. There is a small table at the glass balcony door. I picture bending Cassie over that, spanking her ass until she’s begging me to fuck her.

  Behind me, next to the door, is a black cabinet with five drawers,
filled with toys. Opposite the bed is a long mirror. To the left of that is a walk-in closet. The only person that knows this room even exists is Jayce. The most important part of this room is the ceiling, the railing that can be pulled down, locks into place and allows me to hook the cuffs into the rings. Fuck, Cassie would look good chained to it. I groan, my cock is so hard I am about to explode.

  I shake my head of the dirty images, turning, I walk out and shut the door quietly. Everything is quiet as I make my way to the living room. I grab a tumbler and pour a double shot of whiskey and down it in one gulp. I needed that. No! I didn’t need it, I just… What Luke? You fucking needed it and you know it. You always need it. Just like your mother. Fuck you!

  I am about to punch something; I need to get to Cassie. Without thinking I bolt up the stairs, slowing down as I reach the bedroom door. When I walk into the bedroom, she’s rolled onto her back. Her flowing chestnut curls are splayed on the pillow and the comforter is below her waist. Her blue panties are so tight, so fucking inviting. Fuck it!

  As I walk back into my play room, the darkness envelopes me and my mind is filled with images of Cassie. Splayed. Open. Wanting. Begging. I close the door gently and sit in the wingback chair overlooking the patio. She will hate me and my tortured fucking soul. There is no chance in hell the girl sleeping next to me will ever love me. The image of her blue panties pops into my mind and I push my black pants down. A tight grip on my throbbing erection, elicits a groan and I pump it fast and hard. The image of Cassie with my cock in her mouth runs through my mind. Those mocha eyes, those pink plump lips, I am so close. The tingle shoots down my spine and up to the head of my cock, I come, moaning Cassie’s name.

  Once I have cleaned myself up, I make my way back to the bedroom and slip into bed. I wrap my arm around her, close my eyes, and inhale her. She’s laying on her side again, her ass pressed against me. This will kill me. Sleep overtakes me quickly after my little midnight gallivant.